Khansa Azzahra

Bismillah. Lately I was so hectic, even during the weekend.It's no wonder since now I am doing my internship and do extra activities every weekend. The rhythm of life like the same, start to wake up in the early morning, come back home in the evening then take a rest (sleep early) sometimes I need to stay up especially when I did my revision proposal before. Ala kullihal Alhamdulillah, I am exposed with new experience 'so lively'. Anyway, talk about routine sometimes it could lead to a boring stage. This stage can come when we start thinking "what I do? what I am looking for? is there any other challenge?" or when we start feeling 'empty' not so motivate while doing it etc. Is it the same with deeds/ ibadah?, it could be the same if we do so only limited to the movement not reach to the heart. Especially if we do it for the sake of human. When they exist and praise us then the motivation is high but in the opposite situation, we become demotivate...

Bismillah.  The Sun is not that shinny in this morning. Today are cloudy and windy. It gives quite psychological effect in me eventually. I go to the mosque because I miss the situation in there. I try to find a comfort place to sit and I do contemplation for a while after pray and recite His Lovely Letter which always heals, reminds and warns. A couple minutes afterward my friend calls me, then we hug & shake hand each other. So long time I did not meet her. We do a light (and deep) chit chat. F: sis, I could not sleep lately. It has been few weeks even around one month. I have tried to comfort the situation such as I turn off the light, I read the book or qur’an before sleeping or I hear murottal, I use a cozy dress. But still, my efforts do not work. What do you think the causes from psychological perspective? M: hmm, I am not sure sis. What I know is if your sleep is disturbing from yourself hence the cause could be from inside. It could relate to stress. So...

 Bismillah. suatu malam M: duhh pa,,makin banyak aja nihh berita miring seolah memperparah hubungan Indo n Malay,, **setelah melihat berita tentang TKI yang disiram air panas oleh majikan sampai mukanya berubah A: hmm,, M:  iya tuh..dari wasit karate yg disiksa,TKI, brita basi tp slalu hangat diliput, pulau ambalat, budaya yg (katanya) dicolong de  el el A: truss? M: yaaa jd gimanaa gitu ,kan aq baru mau ksana, takutnya orang2 malay pada sensi sama orang Indo A: nak, dimana2 itu ada 2,,baik n buruk,,tergantung gimana kita menempatkan diri, kalo kita baik in shaa Allah orang juga akan baik,  Allah kan Adil. Dimana2 di belahan bumi ini, tetep sama smuanya ya bumi Allah. Indo & malay sebenernya kayak dua beradik yang sering berantem, tapi bakal baikan lagi. Yahh namanya adik kakak pasti sering ribut kan, hehe M: **diem sambil mikir,,iya juga ya..** then smile  =) A: jadi mau mundur? Nyerahh??? M: hehe gak lah. kan ada Allah yang ngejaga P...

Bismillah. Lately aku sering inget sama keluargaku. Papa, mama dan adek2ku. Kangen! Pernah beberapa kali aku sampe netesin airmata, pas mau tidur, pas lagi jalan, pas lagi liatin langin, pas di office, pas denger ceramah dll. hixz.Aku ngerasa belum berbuat banyak untuk mereka, belum menjadi putri yang baik bagi orang tuaku juga belum menjadi adik yang baik untuk adik2ku. Astagfirullah... Well, kali ini aku akan menceritakan   tentang adik laki2ku yang nomor 2. Aku merupakan anak sulung yang memiliki tiga adik. Dua kembar (cowo & cewe) dan satu lagi ya adikku ini, eja. Walaupun aku memiliki tiga adik, tapi panggilan “adik” hanya ditujukan ke si eja. Kalo sama si kembar aku manggil nama mereka aja. Hmm, mungkin karena sejak kecil kami sangat akrab. Bahkan dulu kalo ditanya "pacarnya  siapa dek?", "uni" sahutnya dengan senyum lebar. Haha. Ajaran gak baik yak, masa' nanyain pacar heuheu, khilap sodara sodari.Ohya, beberapa temen ayahku pernah salah men...